leaving with a bleeding heart

Dear Readers !

I have been a GIS merc by today morning.
Then I left GIS for good and became CEO of my own corp: "Passion of War".

Leaving a corp which gave me so much as GIS did and where I made several friends was not easy for me. GIS was the corp, where I learnt PVP, where I had much fun.

Things changed, command changed, concepts changed and many friends left GIS.
As I began to have my difficulties I began to seek for members and friends who have already left GIS. All of them had the same reason.

We talked with each other, we had ideas what we would really want and soon a PDF was created and shared. Friends who saw that paper joined together and I had to decide whether I want to join those friends and take a leading position or whether I'd rather stay with GIS.

Since I had many friends which still were and are in GIS, this meant depending on how many friends automatically would leave with me I'd leave an earthquake behind, which was and is not my intention.

GIS has some fine people and I'd be glad if they reach their goals.

Knowing about the danger of starting an unwanted rumble in GIS it took me about four weeks and about a dozen of sleepless nights weighing in pro and contra of leaving GIS.

Finally I started to prepare by getting all my valuable assets out of Egmar.
Then it took me another sleepless night and the decision was made to take the chance trying to realize my own ideas in my own corp working together with a conglomerate of corps where my friends reside.

I left GIS and suddenly I was overwhelmed by conversations and questions which I tried to answer accordingly.

Heat among ceartain GIS hotrods boiled over and words like "war declaration", "metagaming", "espionage", "stealing of concepts" were to be heard.
I have full understanding for some people to be disappointed. But I wish they will understand that I had to make my decision. I left for good and my best wishes be with them.

I'll be occupied recruiting german speaking members who want to do all kinds of PVP and who will help me to reach my very ambitious goal to build a respectable and overwhelming armed force available for those offering most ISK.

Dust will settle and hands will be hopefully reached.

Even if my friends and I are Ex-GIS we will never be a GIS-Clone, we have other goals and methods to reach them. When the dust settles, I hope, those being angry now will acknoledge this and hands can be reached again for friendships, then.

Greetings !

Humpfgrunz

days of absent mind

Hi Folks !

Yesterday was a bad day for me ! I trashed two fully Tech2 equipped Thoraxes by sheer stupidity and worst kind of failed micromanagement on my behalf.

Because of some troubles with Sisi (EVE Testserver), Training was cancelled and the trainer decided to go for a roaming with cruisers and frigs instead. So I joined that fleet when I entered the game and burned my Thorax through half of the Lowsec to reach them.
Girlfriends can be really nasty, so my friend left and suddenly I found myself leading the bunch.
We found two pirate gangs. One was a little bit too strong for us and the other seemed to be just the size we wanted to fight with. Only trouble was they were not too far apart from each other. I took the risk and tried to avoid the first and sent in some victim for the second. Our scout got aggressed and so our bunch went into the battleground. While killing the first 'Cane I was so absorbed fiddling with Overheating and Micromanagement, I forgot to have at least someone check the incoming. Soon we were surrounded by a superior enemy fleet and I gave command to evacuate.
Unfortunately I called for ECM too late, aligned too late, burned my MWD through too late and so I just managed to save my pod. Well ECM went down as well, as that pilot had his own troubles and tried to save himself too late as well.
Those who didn't loose a ship went straight back home. Those who did bought replacements in Rens or Hek whatever they preferred.
I chose to buy myself a brand new Thorax in Rens equally equipped as the one I had before.
I burnt it through to Amo and went for my home.
In TeamSpeak I heard about a blinky roaming gang of battleships and the like in Egmar.
Noone told anything in TS about that gang leaving Egmar and I forgot to check the Intel-Channel as well.
When I entered Klogori I saw the whole lot of them surrounding me and stupid mishaps on my behalf followed. Instead of nearing the gate immediately I gave a warp command to the next gate. Half a second before entering warp I got tackled. Then I decided to burn through to the gate, but instead of clicking the gate I brainlessly klicked at a station. When I finally realized my error I tried to correct, but it was too late. Too many webbers on me, too much damage on my not so hefty tanked thorax and dead soon. I safed my pod the second time and enjoyed cursing to myself for a while. being docked in a nearby station.

Things didn't go very well for me recently in EVE. Overloaded with work in Real Life I hardly found time to play it. Then I forgot to upgrade my clone after a suicide-run in 0.0 and lost nearly 1'000'000 Skillpoints and my beloved Battleship V Skill with it at the next run about two hours later. (Be lucky you didn't hear my curses, then - especially because I instructed my fellow comrades not to forget that at the same moment I forgot it for myself).

PvP is an intensive Sport and it requires you, at least if you want to win/survive, to be mentally fit or to field an invincible blob outnumbering any enemy by at least 2 or 3:1.
If you however want to fight Battleships with Cruisers, T2 ships with T1 Junk, you have to be clever, your fleet has to be well balanced and your pilots have to be well trained and skilled.
Taking such risks means your kill:loss ratio will drop but you will and you must learn.
Learn about those damned Curses, those Vagabonds, those Hurricanes, those Blackbirds and all other dangerous ships. You must learn, how to use your ship optimally, how to fight and how to flee at the right moment.
It's definitely not easy and you shouldn't take such risks when you are overworked and tired and thus not mentally fit at all, as I did.

Now I'll buy myself another brand new Thorax.
I'll see how long it'll last this time.

Have a nice day and thanks for reading !

Humpfgrunz